--WARNING: SOME SLIGHT SPOILERS HERE--
I am all for bisexual m/m romance being empowering, but the problem here is that the character gets all the way to the end, makes the right decision, but his thinking is all wrong: he isn't bisexual. In fact, that's what makes the book so frustrating--throughout the entire story, John keeps protesting that he isn't a gay man, but he is. At every turn, the story opens him up to a very normal and healthy gay man's sexuality, but he sees it as simply being Nathan-sexual, which isn't the case. I expected that to be the revelation at the end: he realizes he fits into a category cleanly after so long denying that category--but even at the end, he still doesn't get it. While I can see that such an ending will make the "screw labels" crowd cheer, it doesn't make sense, logically, given the events of the story. ( )

Luke Hartwell has become my favorite contemporary author. He writes each of his books or stories in first person POV, and each is very unique. There's nothing else out there like these books. This is Hartwell's first book and is his masterpiece. Not for everyone, but for a lot of people it will become one of your favorite books. I was hooked on Hartwell after reading this one, and his other books have never disappointed me. ( )

Everything happened at such a young age and we were supposed to believe it was 'believable'. Even more strange was that there was another book from the other angle. Please. Write something that worthy of purchase. ( )

Ugh! This is sick and disturbing! Seriously, this story is so f•cked up! Yes, it is so f•cked up that I can't figure out how this story still managed to be hot, funny, sweet and perfect. It's amazing, really, now that I think about it. I can't be more conflicted right now.

I actually feel dirty for liking this story. Filthy. And hot... I mean, there's incest, rimming, come-swapping, humiliation, cheating, multiple rape (and enjoying it!!!1!)... things that would have made me not finish or maybe burn a book without regret. Instead, the story, the characters, and the one-of-a-kind humor made it more than worth it for me, there's now way I could have put it down. I was in too deep by then. Yeah, totally side eyeing myself right now.

And there were several parts in the story where I was like, "Noooo! No, no, no, n—yes! Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, y—F•CK, NO! YEEEESSSS!!!!!!!1! ".

Aaargh! But it's also sooo sweet (not sappy) and it has the ultimate HEA ending, which I'm a sucker of! Did I tell you I'm kind of conflicted right now?

Right. This book is crazy, but I love it. In fact, that may be one of the reasons why I love this book. It's crazy, it's different.

I love it so much that I don't really like rereading novels, but I'm sure I'm going to reread this one soon. This goes straight to my favorites and hg (holy grail) shelves.

Damn, I need a shower. LOL. ( )

After the very long ride to read this book, I feel like worn out, an hole was forming in my heart and the author suddenly filled it in a rush, so strongly that it let me hurting. This novel is good… disturbingly good. John Parker is an eighteen years old straight teenager who decides to give himself up for sex to his best friend Nathan; Nathan is gay and in love with John, and John is thinking he can be Nathan’s sex toy, while at the same time having a girlfriend and some other heterosexual adventures on the side. While with all the women he is the dominant lover, with Nathan he is always the submissive; strange as it’s, John is able to have sex with a man only if that man is Nathan, and only if Nathan is in command.

At first the author, through John’s own words, let you have an imagine of John that is not exactly good; he seemed quite conceited, convinced he is like a God gift for girls and guys, sex on legs like he said of himself. I didn’t like much John, especially since, even if he is always very nice with Nathan, he was also cheating on him with his girlfriend Mary, and cheating Mary with Nathan, but above all he was cheating both of them with other non-important flings. And while at the beginning John was only having sex with women other than with Nathan, then he starts also with other boys, and then he starts doing “dirty” things with these boys once he understands Nathan is not up to the same game he is. Again I approached this side of John in a negative way, I was thinking how unfair he was with Nathan, how stupid and selfish he was… but then I started to see something different, John was trying to degrade himself, he was trying to find a way to prove he was no good, that he wasn’t indeed that God gift everyone was thinking, Nathan first in line. He had to prove to Nathan he was not worthy of his love, not for him but for Nathan’s good. He was so in love with Nathan, that he was ready to destroy himself for him.

There is consensual rape on the page and non consensual rape behind the page; this novel is not pretty and cute as it could seem at first, it’s dark and disturbing, and as I said, I was addicted to it like Nathan was addicted to John, but a hole was in my heart, a scaring hole from the fear I was having these two guys weren’t destined to an happily ever after. But don’t worry, the author managed also to scare away that thought like he managed to put it there. It will not be easy for Nathan and John, and I don’t think the end of the novel is the end of their trouble, but at least they have a beginning. We will see where it will lead them, and I hope the author will share with us that.

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